An Alien

An alien

Spirit of desire

Sentenced to instability

Shaken awake from sweet dreams

In a place of lies

Cries for her patience

But steps on her pride

She barely saves face

Scrambling for proper needle and thread

To mend her heart again

An alien

In a foreign place

She is desired

But not wanted

She is cared for

But not loved

Her eyes are not the same

They see things that are not there

Jumping over holes of necessity

Into fantasy

With no foundation

Beneath her feet

Not even a book on the shelf

But crushed behind it

Left to collect dust of neglect

Everyone sees her

But she is hidden treasure

Shining gold left to waste away

Horded in a vault

of insensitivity

Destined to leave the earth

Someday

Being the only one to know her worth

For to all others

She is

An alien

by Nadira Norjahan

Beautiful Experience

When I saw him

And I loved him

Didn’t know

But I did

He saw me

And he loved me

He didn’t know it

But he did

And our souls

Found each other

In the midst of

A storm

He found my rain

I felt his thunder

And love

Helped ease the pain

Just as the picture

Looked so blue

Oh, love

Then came you

I keep on writing

All about it

I just hope your love

Is true

I don’t know

About forever

But I do know

This one thing

I’m so happy

With this feeling

I hope you will always be

Loving me

The look in his eyes

Makes me feel

So good

So good inside

I am a star

All by myself

But together

We can fly! We shine so bright!

And I don’t mind

Writing line after line

of this feeling

of this time

I just hope

That now and always

This precious love

Will be mine

I saw him

And I loved him

Didn’t know

But I did

He saw me

And he loved me

He didn’t know it

But he did

And our souls

Found each other

Restoring distant dreams

What a beautiful

Beautiful experience

Me loving him

Him loving me

What a beautiful

Beautiful experience

Me loving him

Him loving me

What a beautiful

Beautiful experience

Me loving him

Him loving me

by Nadira Norjahan

Other Side of the Window

OTHER SIDE OF THE WINDOW

Sometimes the wind blows me

At times it hurts me

At times it makes me free

Like a kite I want to fly

Like a prisoner, I want to be released

Instead I am tossed to and fro

Ever tried to pass through a closed window?

Foolish little birdie

Trapped on the inside where it is warm

But wanted to get in so bad

Now that you are in

You have found yourself foolishly

trapped behind the glass

by Nadira Norjahan

The Song in Our Eyes

THE SONG IN OUR EYES

We spoke

Your voice sang to me

I did not realize the thrill

was the thing I feared

Love on its way

without having met

Kismet

I took flight

To separate myself from some energy

Neither of us understood

But on that day

When our eyes finally met

There was a song that played

It was familiar

I did not realize then that you had me

Sparked me

Ignited me

Burned me

So you pursued me

Kismet

You were starving

Your body was hungry

You didn’t know the feast you would have

For where you thought a taste would satisfy

You realized

You tasted the essence of QUEEN

Your desire, your destiny

Your dream

Oh, how it frightened you

Oh, how it terrified me

I fell

I unwittingly casted a spell

Now we are both under

Breathing each other

Inside our broken hearts

Healing

By Nadira Norjahan

This Little Pen of Mine

This little pen of mine

I’m gonna let it shine!

This little pen of mine

I’m gonna let it shine!

This little pen of mine

I’m gonna let it shine!

Let is write!

So I can shine!

Let it shine!!!

by Nadira Norjahan

SUN SHINING AND SMILING

SUN SHINING AND SMILING

I walk around like the sun is always on my face

But the truth is, I’m waiting for something

And it hurts to wait

I smile through the pain of uncertainty

Work diligently for security

That may not be for me

I hug the whole world with generous love

And sleep alone at night, sometimes fighting tears

I long for yesterday to have done it differently

Yet, I thank God that I leave the past behind me

I find so much joy in pleasing others

That sometimes I leave me behind

Just hoping to make the right decisions

Free myself from shackles that bind

I hope for someone to love me

I hope for restoration of family

I hope for stability

I hope for longevity

In the middle of the road

Lies a whole lot of hope for me

Keeping my stride

I don’t know what the steady pace should be

So when you see me walking in the sun smiling

Would you still Pray For Me?

by Nadira Norjahan

ALL THAT I SEE IN ME

ALL THAT I SEE IN ME

I wanna write lines

But I swear I be writin lies

I tell myself

While walking

In my sleep

Carrying on

Through my day

Holding me

One day

It will be seen

All that I see

In me!

by Nadira Norjahan

MOTHER MAYA (RIP MAYA ANGELOU 2014)

Mother Maya

My heart is down below
I know your time has come
No less minimized
the flood from my eyes
We lost a dear mother
A poet like no other
Who taught us to be women
Appreciate what we were given
Caused our hearts to RISE
And to capture life's prize
Related to the shackled bird
Redeemed within her written word
Taught this bird to get her freedom
And enrich her life with wisdom
What a legacy she has left behind
In both your life and mine
This is my tribute to you
Mother Maya Angelou!
In Reverend Dedication to our dear poetic Mother. What a sad day. We have lost a dear treasure!

MY BROWN SKIN I'M IN

MY BROWN SKIN

I am so in love with my

BROWN SKIN

For sure!...

I wish I could be BROWNER

Even BLACKER!

Silky like the midnight sky

Causing stars to shimmer

I am so in love with my

BROWN SKIN

And I run out to the sun

So that I can get BROWNER

Like the sugar I put into my tea

Like the molasses that sweetens more than anything

When I was a girl

My beauty was underappreciated

Now, he can't take his eyes

off of his MOHAGANY prize

I love my EBONY features

That rhyme with my BROWN skin

And I don’t knock those who are lighter

It’s just that I am so satisfied

With the BROWN skin I’M IN!

by Nadira Norjahan

Other Side of the Window

OTHER SIDE OF THE WINDOW

Sometimes the wind blows me

At times it hurts me

At times it makes me free

Like a kite I want to fly

Like a prisoner, I want to be released

Instead I am tossed to and fro

Ever tried to pass through a closed window?

Foolish little birdie

Trapped on the inside where it is warm

But wanted to get in so bad

Now that you are in

You have found yourself foolishly

trapped behind the glass

by Nadira Norjahan

Blessings Anyway Bro

BLESSINGS ANYWAY BRO

I wonder if you know how ridiculous it was

For you to put your nose in the air

Greeted by your nostrils and your high-post glare

Brotha, your so-called status don’t make you a King

It don’t set you nowhere up high above me

And at first I took offense to this

Because I showed you love

And received an undeserved diss

But one thing that I know for sure

There is something to be said about success and doors

I hope that you get grounded pretty soon

Before that door of upper echelon closes on you

Because talent and prosperity is provided to us by grace

And what is given can surely be taken away

by Nadira Norjahan

THE SONG IN OUR EYES

THE SONG IN OUR EYES

We spoke

Your voice sang to me

I did not realize the thrill

was the thing I feared

Love on its way

without having met

Kismet

I took flight

To separate myself from some energy

Neither of us understood

But on that day

When our eyes finally met

There was a song that played

It was familiar

I did not realize then that you had me

Sparked me

Ignited me

Burned me

So you pursued me

Kismet

You were starving

Your body was hungry

You didn’t know the feast you would have

For where you thought a taste would satisfy

You realized

You tasted the essence of QUEEN

Your desire, your destiny

Your dream

Oh, how it frightened you

Oh, how it terrified me

I fell

I unwittingly casted a spell

Now we are both under

Breathing each other

Inside our broken hearts

Healing

By Nadira Norjahan

CHOCOLATE LOVE LETTER

CHOCOLATE LOVE LETTER

It doesn’t matter how far we run

No matter how much we claim uncertainty

Nor how much we fear this energy

It is far more than chemistry

Your Chocolate

Belongs with my Honey

We knew so the first time our eyes met

We were never doomed, but destined

Kismet and Eurythmic

You wanted me and pursued

I cursed you and fell

Then you fell

Into me

Rocking me like a boat on shocking seas

Across seven we have held our breath

But last night, we had to breathe

We swam with our passages wide open

Inhaling each other

Drowning in happiness

Speaking words of life and healing

Standing in reality, no longer dreaming

Because to be together within

Is so much more healing to our hearts

Than to be without

We gave and received

It was not sin

The heat was the flame

Belonging not to you

Belonging not to me

But belonging to US

Risking all to touch heaven

Sitting at the table

Eating our joy with both hands

And no formal setting

Because this does not need to make sense

If it did

It wouldn’t be magic

No one can be expected to understand

What this thing is that we hold in our hands

Because it is not to be understood

It is pieces of broken hearts

Retrieved from the fire

And kindled with a proper flame

And if I am ever thrown into the fire again

Let me be completely consumed

Within the flame of your love song!

By Nadira Norjahan

BLACK WOMAN I AM

Chiffon and lace

Satin chemise

Pearls in the middle

Roses all about

Sweet brown sugar

Honey and Chocolate

Red and Purple

Sand and Soil

Gentle breeze

Shocking wind

Pink petals

Green EARTH

Elevated melody

Perfect Rhyme

BLACK WOMAN

I AM!

Diamond in the Rough

Diamond in the Rough

Again my heart has met its rough place

The stumble where my mind did not protect it

Where I must manipulate the mind

to keep the heart from running cold

And convince it that there will be a chance to love again

To keep the hope alive that someone somewhere

Will value the soul and spirit of a woman

Adored by many but kept by none

I am to be valued higher than jewels

But I keep finding myself beneath the dirt

Thinking I have been discovered by one

Who touches me like I'm precious

Yet only to play and toss me back

to holding myself at night

Loneliness remains a band that is just too tight

How do I continue to be disregarded?

I am to be valued as a walking and breathing

Diamond in the rough

But eventually, with the precise amount of pressure

Even the strength of a diamond can be crushed

Seeing Me Through

SEEING ME THROUGH

The morning opens and I think of you

I think of how much I love your arms

Strong arms that melt away my pain

Calming my world

Fixing my frustrations

Reciprocating my love

Throughout the day

Thoughts of your glorious hugs

Accompanied by sweet kisses

Tender caresses

And loving stares

Deep into my soul

My morning thoughts of you

Help to get me through

The Good Word

THE GOOD WORD

I don’t regret

One moment

But to say

That I’m not hopeful

Would be such an awful lie

I’m remembering

I’m smiling

Not scared

Not resentful

Randomly laughing

Dreaming

Praying for you

Wide open

Because once in a lifetime

Love touches you

I mean the real magical stuff

Then you either have it

Or you don’t

It just has to be wholly true

Belonging to the hearts of two

I only wonder

Does that magic ever truly happen

One sided?

I’m leaning on the side of no for that

Because magic was in every part of us

So it will be

Always

That’s the good word

I WRITE

I write

Love

Fallin in and out

I write

Joy and Pain

Both can make you shout

I write hate

So you don’t feel that energy

I write

Tears

That I don’t want you to see

I write Fear cuz sometimes

Only in the PEN I trust

I write because as a poet I MUST

I write

Secrets that I choose not to keep

I write

The words I’m sometimes afraid to speak

I write

The thoughts of the moment

that would shatter you like glass

But sometimes I throw those same lines in the trash

Sometimes I write many words

Other times few

Sometimes I write lustful, freaky things

If you only knew

I write

Resentment of that foul shit you said

I write

Remorse for that foul shit I did

I write

Passion for things that are good and bad for me

I write

All kinds of shit just to keep my sanity

I write

Anger cuz of that foul shit YOU - did

I write

Laughter just to get me over it

I write fairy tales

From a little girl’s mind

I write lines of music

To sing in time

 LA-LA-LA-LA-LA

 

I write on napkins with eyeliner

When I’m on the run

and I gotta

Get the line out of my head

Cuz the magic could be lost

if I forget

Get home and transfer

Keep the concept and reword

Line it up in poetry

Or frame it up in the songs I sing

Sometimes I just write

When there’s nothing else to do

Sometimes I write

So that I can sing MY OWN blues

I write sometimes

Like an artist possessed

To tell the truth

I think that’s when my art is at its best

Sometimes I write circles

But you see squares

Sometimes I explain it to you

Sometimes I don’t care

I write all about my life

Cuz it may relate to yours

I write to physically purge

Lines from my soul

Sometimes I write lines

Said to be beautiful and bold

But I just write my heart out

so my story can be told.

FIRST FLUTTERINGS

I recall first flutterings

Of your life inside

My womb

I recall that feeling

I just cannot describe

There is a blessing there

Electric pulses that traveled

Through my fertilized ovum

Energy spewed forth by God

To make one who will be none like another

All that he created and placed there

In my womb

Was magic

And I felt it

In those first flutterings

And as you grew there inside of me

We began to connect forever

To bond

As I sang to you

As you stretched my belly with your growth

I would lie on my back

And watch movements of this beautiful

Wonderful and miraculous thing

Of which I am blessed by God

ME YOU SICK

Music

Me-You-Sick

You are so sweet to my soul

You find me when I have been left behind

My lover that fulfills me to climax

Every time

All burdens released in my blues

All love pure and deceitful

In my R&B tunes

Revolution and ego in my hip-hop

Never to be rationalized

Often abused

We evolve

I jump with you into the deep end

Of loneliness and pain that belongs to us only

You are my eternal lover

Dancing within my essence

Sending me to fantasy

That only we share

We are alone

We make love soft and long

Hard and strong

Till I sweat

My sweet, sweet me-you-sick

You hurt me with your melody

I leave you

you draw me to return

I am your love slave

Enslaved and delivered

I commit crimes and deliver blessings

A glorious ménage triose 

Your melody, poetry and me

I cut them who hate me and hear them bleed

I bless those who are in need

You are God, you are the devil

So pure, so evil

You reveal my weakness

till I am exposed and vulnerable

You are my poison and antidote

You charge me with truth

Filling my ears with lies

I love you!

I hate you!

Endless stories you tell

Sealed forever in your song

My sweet jazz of complication

Broken and restored

Take me on a holiday

For I have found a place of sorrow

Lose me in your grace

Evoke dreams of happy colors

Take me away

You are so sweet, so very sweet to my soul

Return my existence to the light

For my heart is void

My lover

Me-you-sick

So sweet to my soul!

 

 

I'M JUST A POET

I’m Just a Poet

I’m just a poet

Full of things to say

Sometimes I rhyme

Sometimes I have no reason

Just passing time away

Because I’m just a poet

Full of things to say

Forming my vocabulary

Artistically upon the page

Sometimes I will make no sense to you

Other times you will get me right on

You may laugh or cry

Reading what I put down

Because I’m just a poet

Full of things to say

Crafting words specifically

In my own crafty way

Dreams and fantasy

Or reality and truth

It’s a piece of me

That I offer to you

Because I am just a poet

Full of words so fancy

And writing poetry

is my sweetest therapy!

GROWN WOMAN INSIDE OUT REFLECTION

GROWN WOMAN

INSIDE OUT REFLECTION

 

I am in grown woman inside out reflection

Looking inside out

Searching for the best woman in me

Sweeping away regret with building blocks of peace

On a foundation of God

And his blueprint of who, what and why I am to be

Daily battling my own mind when it seeks to eat my sanity

And going to war against principalities

Intent on devouring my very being with doubt and hate

I am in grown woman inside out reflection

And just as I carefully choose my hairstyles and clothes

I am working on the inside me

I fell from two damaged trees

Who spewed hatred on me for simply being

And I hated me on the outside and my insides hurt

I knew not the innocence

That was stolen from me

I was a balloon filled up with wanting

Until I was pierced by the mending needle of my blues

So I sing away loneliness and pain

And my testimony is joy like rain

And the virus of darkness that bloated my sorrows

Are now bubbles of therapy

So now I can finally see the possibilities of under water breathing

No longer drowning

I have begun to heal

I will suffer the growing pains

The scabs will begin to peel

And as they fall away

I am renewed

And I can love you because I can love me!

With my words

With my song

Because it heals ME to love

Because GOD is LOVE!

And HE is inside of me!

SMH...

SMH...

Smh
Texting me that you miss me
When you gave me away
Hoping I'm lonely enough to come your way
But I am way over being insane
You can't love me and invite me to pain
I may not have someone
I can call my own
But rather than be with you
I'd rather be alone
You are not the first
To try and return
After hurting the Queen
You had warning
You didn't learn.
Now my love is free
For another to earn
Guess you gotta be Usher
And let it burn.

by Nadira Norjahan

THE VINE & THE WEED

THE VINE & THE WEED

Choose, dear flower

Shall it be the VINE

In which you intertwine?

Or the WEED

Upon your root to feed?

The arms of the VINE

Follow your path

Press upon your stem

In its passing through

Takes over all of your color

All of your vibrance

Along your destined road

Leaving you lonely

Threatening to strangle your stem

Take your life with him

The intentions of the WEED

Are to sap upon your need

For sustenance of comfort

Springing up at once

Inviting you in

Chewing your color

Till none is left

And there is only life left

In his next victim

Alone, you precious flower

You are so vulnerable

So unprotected

Should have held your thorns

For your defenses

Now all that is you

Is stuck between

The strangling VINE

And the chewing WEED


by Nadira Norjahan

LET THE BIRD SING!

LET THE BIRD SING!

Oh, you chirping little bird!
You used to get on my nerves!
All early in the morning
with your joyous tweeting and singing
but your song is so welcome to me now
so sing it however loud
because I know the song you sing
Is the herald's song of SPRING!

by Nadira Norjahan

ART'S RESTORATION by Nadira Norjahan

ART’S RESTORATION

I must partially consume
What the world serves on the plate
What is less than fruits and veggies
I must regurgitate
Awareness is heightened
They want to censor me
If I let them do that
I will no longer be Queen...
I shall not be a lamb
I shall not be the martyr
I shall not be easily led
To the wilderness, slaughtered
Some will accept me
Some will probably hate me
One thing they won’t do
Is take my life from me
It is not owned by any
My short time is plenty
I will continue to write
The lyrics that are heavy
I will continue to LOVE
No matter how I’m debated
I will continue to fly
Tell em all GOD sent me!
I am a goddess
The Master’s Princess
They always doubt
The fact that I’m blessed
They want to taste me
Because my soul is sweet
They will doubt I am flying
While down by my feet
I’m not a bitch
Nor a hoe
Not a chicken head fool
How can the Queen be a dog
A dummy or garden tool
Years behind me
I lived in total darkness
Now I eat knowledge
Snack wisdom
In forward progress
I am called into purpose
The new path I tread
So when God calls me to lead
I must prepare to be led
Cloaked in humility
I hope I will be
An artist, a vessel
To restore LOVE & PEACE!
One Love!

by Nadira Norjahan